Control Freak

Mr. Innocent, so sweet and right
 Can't talk to him without a fight
 Control freak
 You reek
 Of fuckedupness
 Because you can't get your way.

 Your revenge is subtle
 And not so sweet
 So no one notices
 You're so discreet

 Don't worry
 You'll see
 Revenge will be mine.
 You're jaded
 And dumb,
 But you'll see in time

 Controlling someone only lasts for awhile
 Till the victim wakes up, breaks free with a smile.
 She'll walk the mile, to set herself free.
 That victim, won't be me!

 Be gone you control freaks
 And your hazardess ways
 I'm free, you can't stop me
 I'm paving the way

 There's no one in this world
who can tell you what to do!
 So don't let anyone
 Treat you like a fool.

By Nicole Serra-Gonzalez 6/28/17

Stage Dreamers

My saving grace My only place To be Free To be me... "If you feel stupid, you look stupid, But if you act stupid, you look good!" A phrase to live by The permission to fly To cry To die To laugh To cheer A place so dear And I'm saying goodbye. God only knows how you got me through And not just me, my students too. Can parents understand It's not about perfection It's about our best. And our best was Creativity, Sensitivity, Laughing, Communicating, Writing, Singing, Dancing, Acting, Sewing, Painting, PARTYING! We did it all And had a ball And had frustrations Injuries, Bad days! But having this place to go To heal... The moments I would steal... I have worked with so many awesome kids And their parents, I've grown to love The moments at Stage Dreamers.. Healing my broken heart And yours, and theirs... We did it all, "A place where talents are nurtured!" Do you know how much it means that you entrusted me with your kids at my place, in my car, to buy their costumes...running through the mall, buying fabric at SaveAThon, taking them to competitions and auditions. As a parent, that means so much. To hear, "I'm sorry you're closing" and "it's such a loss!" Parents who come and see what I do... and get it. I love my Stage Dreamers.... I hope you know I have loved helping them grow. I have loved discovering their hidden gifts. I have loved hearing their ideas and concerns. I am sorry I couldn't hold onto this place, my baby, my mother. The place we would all go to to Dance, Sing Act Have fun! So many of you have shared this piece of my life. And I am so proud of all of you But more so... I am proud of ME! In two years I have opened up a successful business, managed my finances, learned from your children, encouraged your children, went to competitions, put on a show and became producer, director, stage manager, actor, singer, dancer, writer, mother... And we even auditioned for off-Broadway! I became my own... I have learned and done so much and as I did this, So did your children. Together we did this. Words cannot express the joy and sadness today brings me. But I appreciate those who anticipate a reopening. I will forever be Stage Dreamers So will you! And when I reopen You will all know:-D

Suicide

Suicide
It is all about love:
What's wrong
You're gone
And so young
What's life done?
Suicide, it's a sin
You're too thin,
You're too fat
Ain't nothing right about that!
Love, where'd it go?
Ignored you grow,
Found another,
It never bothered
To show its face
What a waste!
Prevent it with love,
It makes you feel good
When someone cares
And shares
A kind word
It's not absurd!
It is the little things we do that matter.
Things unseen that mean the most!
Love
Prevent it and you destroy
All that is great,
Happiness, success, self esteem, and joy.
No matter what age
No love is destructive.
Death becomes seductive,
Because love is powerful,
Insanity overtakes your mind,
Punish those
Who hurt you so,
By disappearing
Would they care then?
By then it's too late!
And you wonder why?
Because with out love we die!

Love Undying

Love undying


Non trying


Quiet suffering grows louder


Crowds notice the unbearable sound


Tears fall like hail


Hard and painful


And the rupture in my heart


Sounds like thunder.


Are the Gods fighting?


No, they are playing games,


And I am the pawn.


I like adventure,


But this game is painful.


They have parted my body and heart.


They use them against each other,


And at times


One is stronger than the other,


Taking turns at this battle.


In the end, if my heart doesn't win this game,


I fear both shall die.

Caged Beast!

I am a caged beast!
An enraged beast,
Gnawing at the bars,
Trying to escape

Set me free!
Let me be;
I can't take it anymore!
Forget the keys, I can't find the door!

Grasping for air...
Is anyone there?
I can't hear a thing.
Am I dying?

No, the beast within is enraged
Break the cage
Fly away
Can not stay!

I Am Afraid

Fear
It stops you, before you even begin.
It doesn't allow you to freely live.
Inhibiting your inner power,
Instead of flying you cower.

Grasping what is left of you;
Disappointed you didn't do,
All that God intended,
Instead you just pretended;
Pretended to fly and love and feel,
Pretended to cry and try when really
You just die
Inside.

I am afraid
Afraid of dying
Without ever living
Because I keep on giving
Except to me,
I long to be free
From guilt
Can't wilt!

Look at my Willow tree
What have you seen?
Long did you live
Ready to give
Me comfort and peace
So strong and yet the Earth's released
Your strength and power,
Over no one shall you tower.
Will another take your place;
Have your beauty and your grace?

I will let you inspire me today,
Let no one say...
I lived in fear
When my journey is clear.
It might be the road that nobody takes,
But it is the choice I make.

Thank you Willow Tree for a life well spent
And giving me courage to live the life I am meant.

The Recap

(Looking at the open door, she knows he wants her. She thinks about attacking him this time but she knows it is wrong for so many reasons. Still, she can't help herself and slowly walks through the door and down the stairs. The room is white and dingy and it is the laundry room.)

Melissa: What are you doing down here? (she is very nervous and excited)
Eric: Nothing, I am just organizing and washing clothes. (He looks at her then back at his work, then locks eyes with her. He is afraid of what she is after.) It looks better right?
Melissa: (She looks around not caring about what he is saying, but trying to sound interested.) Yeah it looks great. Can I help you with anything?
Eric: No, I got it. Thanks.
Melissa: Let me help you. (She walks over to the dryer and starts to fold his clothes)
Eric: Stop it! (he grabs her hand softly) I got it!
Melissa: (She turns around slowly and stares at him. She drops the towel she is holding and grabs his face and kisses him) I am sorry. I can't help myself. I love you.
Eric: (he doesn't pull away from her kiss until he realizes his fangs have dispersed.) You know why we can't! I am sorry. I can't do this again.
Melissa: I don't care what you are. Can't you realize i love you. And you love me. Can't you admit it. You wouldn't have risked kissing me if you didn't love me.
Eric: That was over a year ago. You have to move on. I don't know what else to say.
Melissa: You broke my heart Eric. I knew what you were and I knew that our kinds never mixed, but you mixed it. The day you kissed me you changed my life and my thinking. Why can't we be together, WHY!
Eric: I am sorry, but we just can't. My family would disown me. You are my friend and that is all it could ever be.
Melissa: Are you sure? Because you weren't when you grabbed me and kissed me and didn't stop when over and over again I asked you to. I knew you would hurt me. You are so selfish sometimes! (Melissa goes to walk out but he grabs her arm and pulls her back.)
Eric: Do you know what you are asking me?
Melissa: Yes! But I don't care. You already stole my soul. (Melissa is holding back tears, breathing heavy and staring into his eyes.)
Eric: (He is still holding her arm and he kisses her passionately. He lifts her to sit on the washing machine and she wraps her legs around his waste. Things are heating up when he picks up his head from her lips) Are you sure?
Melissa: (Without hesitation) Yes! (and she pulls back her hair and gives him her neck. He bites her ans she moans)
End Scene
Eric: